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Yesterday I was sooooo tired. I came home and I fell asleep for a very long time, I slept right through the dinner I should have made. I feel someone tapping me on my arm, groggy with sleep I open my eyes.

Roman and Ariannan are standing there. Ari is holding a glass of juice, and Roman has a sandwich on a plate.

Roman, "Mommy, I made you dinner" I glance down and sure enough there it is. "Here Mommy, taste your sandwich I made it myself, and I made one for you too Daddy"

I sit up, wipe the sleep from my eyes and taste Roman's sandwich. It was a slice of bacon in between two slices of breads, pressure is on, Roman is watching, I take a bite. Hey, it's pretty good, all the better because it's filled with love! "It's the best sandwich ever Roman!" My heart was so full of love at the sweetness of my lil boy. You all should have seen him swell with pride. "Don't forget to drink your juice Mommy, you too Daddy"

Come on Ari he says, "I'll make you dinner too!" Roman tells me. "I'LL always take care of you and Daddy Mommy, and my sisiter too, because she's smaller than me. The big kids are on their own.

Isn't he just the sweetest!

Dreamt about Daddy! Again....

I had another dream about my Dad, this time He was driving me to a doctor I think, I was just so happy to be with him. Somehow we ended up at Church, and we were having a really good time, Ron woke me up again, I was sad to leave my Daddy.. I love you and I miss talking to you Daddy so very, very much! There was so many unspoken words between us, but somehow I know you know! I have so many flashbacks of us Daddy, I can remember being so possessive of you, our dancing and singing together, you buying me my first big mac.. you sewing my clothes and making me chocolate cake. I always had to lick the bowl...um yummy! You taught me how to ride a bike, and you didn't let me fall. Thank you Daddy for all you did do! I love you!

Dreamt about Daddy!

Early this morning I had a dream about my Daddy. I dreamt that I was visiting his church and as I entered the door there he was talking to Uncle Freddy. He looked so good, and healthy, so strong, he was so animated and jovial. I went up to him and gave him a really big hug. My sisters were there and my Dad was disturbed and unhappy because they were fighting. I think he knows that they are not communicating with each other and it''s disturbing to him. Rest in peace Daddy, I love you, and I miss you so very much!

My Dad passed away on August 2, 2010. He had suffererd with Cancer for 2 years. Towards the end it was unbearable to watch the deteriation of my Daddy. I miss calling him on the phone, and our random conversations. I will sau I was relieved to see him crossover because I hated what the Cancer did to him, my Dad, so strong and brave reduced to just a shell.

The funeral was hard, I was screaming and didn't even know it came from me. My sister passing out and my uncle singing.. God I hate funerals! Daddy, I miss you so much! I just can't believe you are gone!